An attempt to make myself fall asleep

Now that Xavier Days are over, I’m now free from the jitters of planning and organizing our organization’s booth. It’s no big thing to deal with but saying thank you is definitely a big deal to those who helped me from top to bottom, from the most obvious to the most subtle. So, THANK YOU. Thank you most especially to my boyfriend who, if not around, wouldn’t have made even a single thing possible. I can’t wait until my next project. I’ll write about it!

Anyway, I’m gonna be honest about my real reason for writing this. I’ve planned to start my own blog since my 20th birthday. I’ve thought about a starting title for weeks but now it just comes to me that my first entry has to be something extracted from my thoughts as if my brain just got re-fixed. Now I’m only 5 months away from my 21st and I haven’t begun my ideal blog yet. This account on Tumblr is just an outlet of my being a frustrated architect. I will reveal its significance to me on my later entries. :)

Time check: It’s already 04:21AM (like Gwen Stefani’s ‘4 In The Morning’) and I’m still not asleep.

I want to talk about everything. There’s figuratively a huge bank of my thoughts that I ought to let everyone know, even if they don’t care. These thoughts vary from politics to fashion, from movies to just random acts of kindness, my life’s revelation and my criticism of someone’s, just about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING.

But right now, I just want to declare this entry as my first article for my first ”real” blog. That blog though will be published as soon as I finish its site details.

I’m not gonna deny I want attention. I know there are hundreds of blogs out there already. I’ve read a few articles from some, but I’ve never subscribed to one. By the time I’ll have this posted, I know no one will care and will shrug off my words written by my fingers from the ideas of my brain and blabbing mouth. I know I’m just nobody and my insignificance is highly ignored. But one of these days, I promise I will open my mouth or stretch out my fingers to type with my words and through it, I hope I will get to open your minds and stretch your everyday reading.

Besides, the world without internet is just so limiting. There are people around me who I can’t reach out to but I’m hoping this blog will slash out all our differences. I want everyone to know me in a deeper sense, and I want to know more people to fully appreciate the beauty of diversity.

My mission is for you to thank me from what you’ve learned and read, and for me to thank you for reading. :)

I’ve said too much. I will now force myself to sleep. And based on this entry’s title, the attempt failed. Thank you for reading, and I wish you well on your own attempt to something now - be it to make a cup of coffee, or make a person smile. Now the sound of the air conditioner will be my lullaby. Good night!

@2 months ago
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